well just want to share my 3rd serious relationship with this guy, it all happened here in Dubai. DUBAI bow, i met him way back 2005 august, i have my bf with me but it was long distance relationship kasi nasa pinas siya and he has his own also, we became friends kasi tinutukso na kami ng mga ka flat mate namin, actually he really is not one of our flat mate, pumupunta lng siya dun coz he used to fixed the pc of our kuya kuyahan sa flat and best buddies sila, nung medyo lumalalim na ung friendship namin coz he's flirting with me ganun din me, one of my close friend told me na may "ASAWA and ANAK" boom.... dun me nabigla, so sabi ko okey lng flirt lng naman... no strings attached, until.. ang pinakamalaking pasabog at that moment is my truly bf for 3 years has confirmed to me na may 3rd party siya, the time na umalis ako ng pinas nagka bloom ulit ung relationship nila nung dati niyang ex, OUCH... i thought he's the one, then there he was this guy, comforting me, everything that was month of december, we shared lot of enjoyment, even becoming more closer, but i dont deny the fact na meron nga siya sa pinas, sympre galing me sa heartbreak, i found something different with this guy, i just felt that im already in to him already. he joined our group, january, dun kami lalo naging closer, as in closer and we had this thing already for both of us, we already used to call each other this endearment word, as in parang bf and gf, but still im longing for my ex bf, i told him that and he was flusted when he read it on my mail to him, i felt that his feelings towards me is not just ordinary feelings, sometime when we are talking he make biro na kaya na me ipag palit and he's not married, then, he told everything from the day theyve started with this girl of his, i mean for me is not a relationship which your in the same vicinity and you hardly talk and see each other which work on for 10 yrs, yup, that was his first gf and first in everyhting, it is very special to him lalo na na may anak sila, i must tell that he did everyhting to this gurl for all his makakaya as in pati buhay niya, kahit magkalubog lubog siya sa utang, until he met me, we've been on this relationship for 1 year, i thought everyhting will be fine when he go on vacation and will tell everybody the truth that he lost already his feelings with this gurl but the reponsibility is there ofcourse, if your asking na sino ako para ipagpalit niya sa gurl na un knowing na may anak sila, in that 1 year, i treated him much more as I treated my self, dinivert ko narin ang sarili ko sa kanya, that why he fell onto me and made that decision, BUT, when he go on vacation he DID NOT call me at all, nung nasa pinas siya and i was in Dubai, for almost one month he called twice and sobrang ikli pa ng conversation namin, i dont know what to do at that time, so i decided i dont want to see him when he get back, i went on vacation myself, im longing with my family, and that's it, when he knew i was in Manila, he did everything to contact me, but i can't resist he's calls, he's msgs, but we didnt make it to the point na magkita sa pinas only nung umalis siya dahil may padala ung one of my friend, from there in Dubai when he returned there, dun na ulit bumalik ung communication niya saken, and i told him na hindi ko na icocontinue ung relationship namin because of what he did, but still, mahal ko na siya and i accepted him for whatever reason he told me, naging kami ulit, but again gf niya parin ung gurl and ung gurl dun pa nakatira sa kanilang haus. I told him to choose between the two of us, it took him 7 months to finally decide, and in the span of seven months weve been into a rough fight, actually ako, it is me who finally brought up na my relasyon kami, the gurl was shock but he confronted him and he DENIED me for several times, i told him that if cant choose then I'll have to leave, we are living in together for almost 1 year and how many month thats why andun ung BONDING namin, mas mahaba ba ang pinasamahan namin kesa dun sa nabuntisan niya, it was march 2007 when he finally cut the communication with this gurl, and i might say that gurl has been tru a rough time accepting the fact that pinagpalit siya, saken. till now we are living together peacefully, gurl has parted ways along with their child and make it to the point that he no communication at all, she despise us worst she "SUMPA as in the name of the Devil" ganun ka kagalit ung gurl, what she didnt notice that its her fault, for me its her fault.. definitely, she is the first who cheated but still he accepted her, he even sponsor this gurl here in Dubai way back 2004 to be with him after the cheating thing and decided by the girl to make baby and went home nalang sa pinas, asper kwento ng bf ko ngaun way back a year ago, but i know that is tru because it reflects on the relationship with her family, this gurl doesnt have good camaradere with my bf family thats why they supported the decision of my bf to choose me.
With that, everyhting are smooth, but it is still on my mind that somehow they are connected because of the child, that later on they will see each other and talk about the future of their child, that it might still change his mind and leave me because he has a family to starton his own, and might be i can't give him child to have a family of our own, or the sumpa things works because we cant deny the fact that we hurt one feelings. eneryhting is playing on my mind as of this moment, i always got jealous everytime if he's not with me, i always predict that he has somehow communication with the gurl and i always think that he is longing with the voice, the face of his child.
what should i do?
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